and then there was 6...erm...5 1/2
I got a new guitar tongiht which on the unofficial count makes 6 guitars counting the metal bass even if it isnt totally done and assembled. its a sonata 6 string which means i have a more reliable 6 string acoustic. i have the old martin but its just had a hard life and needs to be retired to sweet smelling well scented caseland. the metal bass will be underways hopefully soon. i like francie need praying too, im about to do something that will shake the grounds i walk on. alot of things happened last ngiht that have left truely sickly hurt and really just screaming for a answer on why someone would let it happen and why someone would do it to me. i want my friends back, one mad at me, one never has time for me and wont help me when i need it and puts me down and the other tries her hardest but has to juglle work and a million things more but i still love her for trying. its becoming impossible and i just need praying for. between friends and family and the fact that i am getting laid off at the end of the month is just taking a serious stress toll. i found my eyes bleeding last night pretty badly which isnt good cause it is not supposed to happen. i do have light in news though. i may like 99% chance have a job at hot topic in vista ridge which will work out for me alot better because the staff is all female so i will beable to get along with them fine and i know all of them (cept for 1) on a personal level so i thik it will be cool, not to mention im already trained which only can help my chances. so yeah hat helpps some but i dont totally have it. so yeah give me you prayers. ill be off for now im going to play some 6 string which i havent done in to long and then go to bed
dancing in a rut
blue oyster cult. im that way right now, im happy and dancing and doing my jig but im going nowhere, looks like i might catch some traction and go work for blue mountin energy or the dallas mornign news since case is dieing. dunno tho its all on the horizon. 99% chance ill be at church this sunday :) 99% im going to talk to the missions comitee and see if there is any way of getting the mission trip back on. we will see. im off for nwo maybe ill write later
happy new years
yeah nothign to say ill write later but happy 2005
i have this theory that if were told were than thats the only idea well ever have
that boy needs therapy. frontier psychologist is one of the grerat techno songs they plastered on rock stations a mistake of its genre. brents probally muttering something or just got done with it. so im cool hung out with like a billion people today, went and played frisbee golf with stephanie then watched a moview with julie than hung with tiffany. i had plans for tomarrow now tonight but they have been canclled on account of babysitting. i dont know right now im tired still a little mad but in the end just melancholic. hehehe melancholic alcoholic, cmon alexis. oi old joke. im gonna go sleep i have places to sit and nowhere to go on new years eve. c ya
candle flame
has anyone ever stared at a candle flame, its kinda important to do i think, to look at it and wonder what really makes it happen and why it is such a powerfull force. i stared at one for 32 minutes tonight, never realized it had been that long. it humbles you but at the same time it gives you a sense of power. i dont know maybe im feeling powerfuless in my life right now, never being able to control factors that arise and wreck plans, hopes, dreams, and this life.
so ive had a good time lately, not as much drama which im thankful for. i jkust want life back to normal like it was. i moaned and complained abotu it for some stupid odd reason, and now its stupid i had it really good untill about september when stuff happened here at my house and then it started branching out. paul muriet was one of the greatest russian composers ive ever heard. sorry sidetracked to my music. chasity star was having family issues with monetarily values so i ran her back and forth and here today and didnt get to go say hey to heather as i had planned which bummed me out and so i moped around my house playing xbox until sean came over with evolution and we watched it. afterwards a little xbox till he left then now i find myself here on aim with sarah kay and blogging. christmas went mildly well, finally got a new tv although there was a good deal of drama on the internal life.
life floating, going back to ireland soon if all goes well. im glad about that. look forward to any of my fortune coolkies coming true or even none of them. ill see yall later
can you feel what the light doesnt
what is it when you have some events that line up so perfectly that it leaves you udderly paralyzed in a sorrow that you know you shuld be over but you arent. ive had so much going on. ive missed seeing heather and the rest of the sunday night group like mad and its not going to get any better soon. i miss heather. she is a part of my smile thats been missing for almost a month. meghan about broke me last night. i kno this will hurt her to read but she needs to know im not going to expose much but she had a breakdown last night that was pretty serious and well its drained me so much and i didnt go to sleep and everything is falling apart right now and im looking for the light. i dont know. i just need a friend to come and hug me right now but there are none they are off have a good life and a great time and i dont know
your slipping away
life is going, no jagged rocks maybe a bump here or there but smooth sailing, still trying to get my papers in for ireland. know ive got to do college stuff. its all good tho
